Sleepy.... (Z.Z)

Can't blame me for being sleepy right now, although it is only 5.30pm....hahaha.

I got up early morning although i slept at 2am. Awaken by mum to fetch her to the bank. So, without having any lunch and cursing under my breath, i departed, planning to finish everything as fast as possible and get back to my warm nice bed. However, i forgotten it was my mum whom i am fetching. When she said its only to a BANK, usually there is 3 other things attached. Today, is not an exception. We went 1st to Maybank to get my bank draf done for IMU fees, my mum spent the longest time there ( about 30-40min? I got so fed up with her )...then went to Public Bank don't know for what, then went to buy nasi lemak ( by then i already hungry till don't feel anything) then headed to MPSJ where there is absolutely no parking at all although i round that place for like 3 times. Finally, i settled myself at the parking for kaki tangan. Who cares la, there is so many places for Kaki Tangan until there are so many empty places.....while you being a government, vital place, provide almost nil parking to like 100 over thousand populations who are under whole MPSJ power. You want to take the saman money but didn't provide space for people to park properly so can go pay saman....then what? get another saman from you for simply parking just because i want to pay my previous saman? Stupid !!

Anyway, when i got home, it was like 11am, took my breakfast, lie around and play my piano then went for bath and departed to IMU at around 12.05. Reached earliest ( although they say is 12.30...wat la them , always late !! )and i sat outside CSU thinking what i would get for results later. When they reached, we went for steamboat...haha early morning eat steamboat, salute them.

Finally, we burnt a lot of time in our lunch, all of us are so well fed til bloated....haha. And, we went back to faced the truth of life at around 3pm. I was so nervous that i got polyuria and got fire by them....okay lo...sorry!! Took my results with trembling hands and when i open, i 1st saw no " extra letters "attached to my result slip which mean i have 50% sure i pass ( the extra thing is usually the resit time table...haha ) then i saw the word CONGRATULATIONS ...i knew i passed....but i saw my results...C+ at the overall column....i was like WHAT THE HECK???? I worked so hard that i only deserved C+? that is this world coming to? So with a bit of disappointment, i sms most people who cared for me telling them about that stupid results. However, the surprise is behind. I realised that i see wrongly....i actually got B-....i upgraded myself from C+ last time till now B-....wahahaha. Although i didn't reach my target of B and its still in the mean, i am glad i got B-.....B is so much nicer to look than C right? haha

So, what with that relief, happy and fullness, i started to feel sleepy now....oh god, I really need to go nap a while. I am just so glad that i passed !! March on to SEM 4 !!!! Yippiez ~

Post Stress Syndrome

Finally, today, the long awaited day for the suffering to end. This 4 days seems like decades to me, i just cannot tell it clearly how long, bad, suffering, torturing...etc etc to me.

Don't know why, i had been having bad dreams every day ever since the 1st day of EOS started. At 1st, i thought maybe i am under great stress, that is why i having that problem. Further more, all my dreams are related to the exams, say, I having difficulties in answering exams questions, or i blank out in OSCE or i was late for exams since i have to fetch my mother to some where else. Anyhow, i was expecting everything to end today, i should be able to have a good sleep.

However, things are not what i expected. After the OSCE today, it was quite successfull i would say, i went for a nap. But, the nap was a horrible, i still have bad dreams, waking my up with tachypneoa and tachycardia. Sigh. Just now, nausea came to visit me and now, i am praying hard not to have more symptoms or i would have to report to my mother.

Perhaps, this is just the post stress syndrome. My body still thinks i am under stress? Anyhow, i just feel afraid to go to sleep tonight, i scare i will wake up with another terrible dream of the exams. Sigh !! I need to go somewhere else, i think...to relax my mind !!

Babies....

Last time, i love babies.....very patient with them.....but today, all i can say is....I HATE BABIES !!!

Seriously, i am having a bad headache now, thanx to my uncle's son. The son, named John has a good, well known reputations of not simply crying, always laughing and being a sweet baby. That is why, when my uncle called and asked whether my mum and i can take john in for few days, i told my mum it would be fine for me.

Anyway, planned to sleep hard after OSCE exams. Been worrying like shit since yesterday, my brain couldn't stop thinking and i didn't have a good night sleep. So, ' planned " to sleep long long. Who knows, this john here.....keeps crying when ever my mum or i put him down to sit on the bed. He wants to cling on our body and i HATE ppl clinging on my body. Thats why, end up, i just chuck him there.....my mum went somewhere else, i don't know, and i just let him cry. I don't know why am i so cruel. But all i know is, i am getting more and more impatient, tell him not to cry, ask him to sleep, he just don't listen. He is very sleepy...yet he refuse to sleep but to cry and cry and cry.

Thanx to him, i hate babies now...........

Urgh...bad headache !!! Having fever all over again.......

EOS

Today is the 1st day of my disaster period.......yeah...sounds nicer when i say disaster !!

Anyhow, had a bad dream whole night ( or was it morning since i slept at 2am? ). Its rather funny dream where i keep dreaming that i am late for exams....so late that i decided not to go and give MC. haha. Anyhow, woke up when my alarm went off.

What to say about EOS? As usual, it killed me nice and sound. sigh. I don't know, maybe i am just stupid, too high confident level and think too highly of myself? I felt that the papers are quite tough. But, if it is not tough, it is not EOS right? lol. OBA was the worst. I got a shocked out of my life when i saw the 1st Ques. What indicated lipoprotein lipase deficiency? A. High HDL ( definitely wrong ). B. Elevated LDL and nothing else. C. Elevated VLDL D. Decrease VLDL E. Decrease LDL. I went blanked staight away and mixed up the flow of the cholesterol.....sigh, anyway, the answer is C if u don't know. I thought it is suppose to be LDL to IDL then VLDL. Mana tahu, it is VLDL to IDL then LDL......i went opposite. sad la !!

EMQ and MEQ was....urm, okay la...i would say......challenging as usual, tried my best to write in a lot of rubbish as possible. I bet Thani must be laughing right now, marking our papers.......real good entertainment. Few questions was tricky in EMQ...for example....there is a whole list of antihypertensive drugs and the ques is .....which decrease cardiac output and renin secretion by the kidney? oh oh........anyway, the answer is beta blockers...which now only i know !! haha

CVS and respi are overall tougher and harder. Maybe i am more familiar to Hemato and GI? It seems to me that both that 2 systems are easier.

Anyhow, what has passed is a past......just look forward to my OSPE tmr...which is another killer.......sad la...why EOS is just full of KILLERs? Yet...i am glad....today's exam is over......3 more days to go. Tmr onwards will be a better day !! Say Tak Nak to lecture notes !!

Headache + Dizziness @><@ !!!

Lol...........

i am so so looking forward towards tmr exams....although, let me tell you this, i havent finish studying my PBL ( still got 5 major topics more ), i have about 20lecture notes more to go ( 3rd round adi....but still not very clear....so piah for one last round ), i havent really make myself clear towards difference between AML and ALL....CML and CLL as in cytologically.....i have one vector borne disease to memorise which i doubt, i would be able to make it tonight....and i have half a book of GI past year not done....not to say the last strike of not studied my dear ECG yet.

Yet, still, i am looking forward to exams. The more i studied, the more happy i am since i know while i was studying, time is flying past and hola....it would soon be time for me to sleep and woopies....tmr would be here and exams would be here too.

Really not nervous at all....felt a bit of tenses in my heart, but thats all. I am more sien than nervous, more bored than to feel scare and worried. Lol.

My dog was so nice just now. Maybe i haven't been playing much with him these few days, just now, i went to get a big file to put in all my notes to bring tmr ( tmr got 3 hours break mah....want me sleep? impossible la wei...). Then, he suddenly came sit with me......then i hug him and he kiss me...lol. Licked my whole face and 1st time in his life, he let me hug till i happy.......let me stroke him and he just keep licking me thats all. Lol. Cute la him....love him soo sooo much.

Soon, disaster would be over !! hehehe.....so happy to hear that.......and very very very soon....my holidays would be here....can't say how glad i am to have it !!

Right, piah for the one last time !! Study hard everyone !!

Sigh......Weee......

i am just so bored.......

Felt like there is so much to study, yet i have no more depolarisation to achieve an action potential for studying anymore. My mood.....has long flew away.....maybe,i should just let it be, and die in exam hall

Felt sad these few days. My cousins called my mother, just a plain sincere wish of Happy New Year to her and update her about some of the news in my far away hometown. Then, without considering how i would feel, my mother told everything,about them having party....about which cousin's new born son is big size....about which cousin's son is so small.......etc etc. All these, i know, my mother is just trying to update me.........not to left me out from the world outside......yet, i felt bitter in my heart, i felt guilty....and i felt sad. I would rather they don't call.....i would rather my mother keep all those news to herself and not tell me......i would rather i close up myself whole day from the outside world....then knowing all these...and felt lonely.

For N times, i had been calling IMU and Dr. Thani stupid fellow for putting the exams right after CNY, no, to be accurate, during CNY period ( still 5th day mah ). But for Nth times also, i praise IMU and Dr Thani for letting me get used to this before i suffer bitterly and lonely in overseas....which might happen next year or year after next. I am just contradicting, i know.......but i can't help it.

Lonely and lonely. 1st 2 days was fun here, i can sleep till late afternoon in my dear aircon room, play games till late night, watch movie from the 42inch TV and not having anyone sitting around me bothering me and walking past me and talking to me. Yet......i felt lonely. CNY wasn't like this all these while. CNY is full of laughter, joy and noise not to say alcohol and card games ( so call " games " la...but...in fact....its....*u know la * ). But this CNY, non of that, except books and books and books....opps, should i say notes and notes and notes....plus 2 past year questions books?

Pathetic...........felt so sad till i went to play Beethoven's <<>>.....play till my mood is so down.......and my fingers refuse to play anymore only i come back for past year questions.

Been very not productive these few days....mainly no mood..............seeing other people, laughing and chatting....seeing my neighbours leaving this neighbourhood back to the sweet hometown.....i am seriously so down.

Felt more and more guilty when each day passes by. Mother and Father refuse to go out and have a walk ( there is a temple hear say is very nice ), they wanted to stay at home although they had been doing so for the 4th day. I don't know whats the motive behind that.......to accompany me? no need la....i have books with me......the security is bad? aiyo...go out few hours only mah....nothing will happen la...if happen...then its my fate lo...i no need go exams adi...how nice? haha......don't know la, the more they don't want to go out, the more i felt guilty. I make them stay here....make they leave all the joy and laughter in hometown. Moreover, i felt my dead grandmother's grave lonely ( usually CNY my family would go there....pray with lots of dishes...but i bet this year her grave would be the loneliest. )

Sigh for the above....

And Wee.for the below....

Exams is finally here....i can't wait to be chop down by thani's crazy questions....then i am off to holidays !!

Work Hard everyone !!

Henakoto Chinese New Year

Henakoto means weird in japanese.....

why weird? coz
1st time,
1. i am able to sleep till i puas hati only wake up finally at 10.30
2. i am able to sit infront of my lappie after i woke up
3. i am able to stay in aircon room whole day
4. i am able to play lappie whole day
5. i learn japanese today....using internet
6. i drank the same soup for 4meals already ( apparently, my mum cook too much...felt like vommiting )
7. My trouser's nearly dropped off because apparently i am much slimmer than 6months ago and that trouser was bought by my jap aunt 6months ago....
MOST importantly,

8. I HAVE TO STUDY LIKE AN OX DURING CNY......

now, if you think the 1st 7 aren't weird enough for you, then maybe you should consider the last point. ( 2008 so must put 8 points...i am soooo clever....hehe =p)

I had been sighing for N times,
sigh for
1. my efficiency is very low today
2. why am i so lazy yesterday, should finish yesterday then today no need to study
3. why have to study today
4. why have exams right after CNY
5. Why i cannot celebrate CNY
6. why i have no mood today?
7. why all the movies today are not nice movie...end up i have to either study to watch jap drama
8. I AM JUST TOO TIRED and HAD ENOUGH for this kind of life.

p/s; again....8 points for the fabulous 2008...geng le......okay,i know, im just NBTE.....not non-bacteria trombotic endocarditis okay......i know all of you cramp in a lot of CVS stuff....bt NBTE here means Nothing Better To Enjoy =)

Whole body aching now.....just went to weighed myself today, usually during CNY, i would grow fatter....instead, this year, i have a weird year, my weight goes down, thanks to these few days' lack of sleep + stress + no appetite.

Guess my weight now......muahahahaha.......

I reached my target for weight much more easier than my exam's target......

its.....55KG....geng leh? 1st day i joined IMU is 64KG.....1.5 year took away 10KG...salute IMU....should really promote them....as Slimming centres la....haha....High efficiency......

well....better go play games than crap here unmeaningly....eh...no....should be....meaninglessly.....haha

Happy Chinese New Year !!@!!

Happy New Year....everyone !!

No matter how much we try our best to ignore it, to not remember it, it is still here.........

May everyone get what ever they want this year....when i say they....it means me also la....hahaha

Jia You oh...everyone, study hard !! Have a great year ahead.......

the most lucky thing that happen to me for the past year : get to know you guys, and remain strong bonding of friendship with the old friends.....and last but not least....have a great family !!

Happy Chinese New Year......( okay okay...i sign out now...i know im cheong hei....hahaha )

\(^O^)/

hahaha

Should be sleeping or rather napping right now, since for 2 consecutive days, i had been having not enough sleep.

Anyway, felt so warm at heart for having so many of you, who are concern of me. Yesterday, while i was nervous-ing doing CSU practice ( GI Lah...wat else ), was thinking halfway that i am terrible, See Teng called me up and saved me. Talked to her for some time, until i also forgotten to be nervous. Finally, i did complete everything.......

Then, at night, while i was studying, mugging hard, thinking and hoping at the same time how nice if exams are to be gone tmr.....Teng called my house phone. Wah...was so so touched and glad. Didn't get a house phone call ever since she left India. So, we boil porriage la........boil boil boil....boil until 1 hours gone....haha. Geng leh...somemore, i stop the topic since i saw it is way past 1 hour and i need to finish my 4 notes before i go to sleep. But, thanx to her, i felt less stressfull....more cheerful.

I found out that when you are happy, you tend to study harder. Happy as in positive thinking and being cheerful. But, if your emotion is the other way round, then you will feel saturated very fast. After having SOOOO many concern yesterday night, i really felt like studying notes is not a suffering actually. Haha

This morning, while waiting for Ramzi to come for CSU, Pei Chii and i revised Parasite in the CSU room. I tell you, she is totally CRAZY. She can remember top to toe of the notes...as in the whole life cycle la....every clinical symptoms la...every medication and lab investigations. Felt a bit stressful at 1st, but realised that she is CRAZY, i rather put my memory for some other things...so, the stress just went away by itself. But, i need to refresh my parasite one more time. Like Pei chii said, Parasite might come out for EMQ....and i have an intuition that parasite is going to come out in EMQ. So...everyone....study ya.....trust my intuition ( the newspaper horoscope ask me to trust my intuition...so i ask you all to trust me lo....haha)

Ok la, a bit sleepy adi...should go sleep, later need to go pasar malam, Giant to buy some new year stuff.....then only start study. My targets actually...ended 2days earlier lo. Haha. I at 1st planned to finish every notes latest my thursday, but i count wrongly, thought today is wednesday, so previosly rush like hell....now, can finish all notes by today.Tmr, going to refresh some other notes which i don't like exp larynx la....GI embryology, Vector borne...all those stupid stuff.

study hard ya...everyone...thanx for being such nice and sweet friends....

Good or Bad

Aunty and Uncle went back to pahang this morning, felt a bit lonesome since she has been always by my side since last year......anyway, i guess more and more people would be leaving KL soon, and i should get used to being lonesome......

KL, is going to be a " not-many " people city during this chinese new year, don't know why, it reminds me of " I AM LEGEND ", like the whole city is deserted by everyone and only that poor guy ( whatever his name is, i can't remember ) and his dear dog Sam ( see...i remember the dog's name...means that guy is not leng chai enough ). Haha. A bit exaggerated la, KL won't be THAT DEAD gua...

Went Piramid today, it was surprisingly PACKED with people. I thought most of them would had gone back to hometown, but it looks like they all chose to squeeze in Piramid. Lol. Sent my dear lappie to get repaired. The boss looked at me with BIG EYES when i told him i power button just don't want to " Come Up ". Lol. Cost me RM50, my dad and I was complaining, shockingly, my mum was calm and told both of us to relax. 1st time leh. Usually is she complaining and my dad and i would calm her. Her theory was " CNY coming, so, 1st rule, boss need to earn more to give the workers bonus. 2nd rule, everyone also want to be fast, want to bring back, so he charges u even more for being " fast and efficient " 3rd rule, CNY coming, if he don't chop ur head now, when is he going to earn money? The day he die? "......so yea, thats her 3 theory. But, i got a nice and cheap optical mouse. Was actually giving up of buying an optical mouse in the digital world in Piramid since i saw the cheapest is RM 39 and it is chap ba lang brand.. Its just that it was wrap nicely.....and colour a bit nicer.....yet, to me, it is still chap ba lang brand. So, decided not to buy at 1st. But when i went to Jusco, i saw this nice cute pink colour, with strawberry picture optical mouse, selling for RM 19.90....ahaahaha...of coz la, i support lo. Lol. Eh, come to think about it, i think the max the shoppers in Digital world can give me is about RM 25 ( very very rare la...want them die meh? )....so this one, not even RM 20...so, buy lo. Its a brand call FAMOUS, yet it is not famous at all....haha, if the price is slightly higher about RM 30, got strawberry also i won't buy.....haha

Yeah, so, quite nice leh, today. Later going to have dinner at my favourite " dai chao " shop. At 1st wanted to go Pasar Malam to buy dinner, but it was raining cats and dogs( now drizzling ), so change plan.

Anyway, nice day today...except that kena chop head for repairing lappie and only completed 4 notes whole morning...lol....oh, and my ankle still hurts....i wonder would Archike be nice to me in OSCE and gives me higher sympathy marks when he sees me walking akwardly into his room? haha.....

Study Hard every one...and take care...it seems that the flu virus is flying all over in IMU.......IMU really need to clean the Central Air Con system la.....a bed and good source + Reservoir for common cold virus.....

Yippiez....i got a strawberry optical mouse.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!