Ngam Ngam Cham Cham

I kinda agree with what teng said in my earlier post where i have hormonal imbalance. Maybe i closed up myself too long, then i refuse to talk to anyone, so, although i try my best to keep my temper to myself, all the temper is coming out slowly, or in teng's word--leaking out.

Today, went for CSU. Was a bit frustrated la, then sort of snub at so many people, including Chen Yi. I know my way of talking has becoming more and more sarcastic, i tried to say it in a funny way, but still, it sounded sarcastic. I don't know what comes to me, i hate this kind of me not lesser than everyone else. But, usually, they would tolerate me, but i guess, every one is stressed up, so they also malas to layan me. Sigh.

Usually, after each CSU session, CCB, Ramzi, Wen Chung and Chen Yi would head straight to library and mug there. I would go home. Not that i don't want to join them, but i felt that i have a lot more to go, if i join them, i would either ended up laughing and joking and not doing anything or study lesser for that day. I cannot afford to study lesser each day, which means, i MUST reach my target everyday or i cannot finish on time. Each day now, i am trying to cramp as much notes as possible in my mind, so i can finish all the notes ( 2nd round ) earlier and i want to head for the past year. CCB kept telling me that whats the point with numbers of notes? like him, he studied only once, now is on Past Year and he has the confident of doing well in exams, where as me, doing like a dog, rushing for 2nd time, don't even have confident to pass this exams. For this, i gave him my opinion of " i have my own way of study, so, you cannot compare mine and yours "

Seriously speaking, i felt like, i am a bit isolated already. I felt stressed up easily and keep hoping that exams comes earlier, i cannot take this kind of life anymore ( which i think teng also feel the same? ) I felt my attitude is changing, i am becoming more and more selfish in sharing knowledge, i felt guilty for taking extra notes from the rest of that gang while keeping some extra notes from jane june for my ownself ( anyhow, i just got the notes from JJ today la..haha, so not counted ).

About writing down what i am going to do after exams....sorry teng, i have to pour cold water on you. I DARE NOT even think of holidays. I don't have the confident to pass and been preparing myself mentally " what if i fail....". Of coz, i DO NOT HOPE I FAIL.....I HOPE I PASS NICELY.....but then, sometimes, you just have to lay some road behind, as extra, or else when you fall from such high hopes, it hurts a lot. So, about holidays, i didn't think, but my mother already plan for me. 1st, go Electives with Chen Yi in Seremban for 2 weeks, then come back, i have few days to write report only, then go China to visit my grandfather and next go back to my hometown to shift the graveyard of my 3 ancestors. Their graves had been flooded with water and finally, my uncles and aunties got money to shift the graveyard. Nice plan leh? Although all plan are like ' working ' rather and have fun and relax. YET, today, IMU pour cold water on my plan, for the Nth time...not surprising la...they always do like this de...see the way they treat us this CNY. They decided that our holidays end on 31st march, meaning, i have only 1.5months as holidays where 2 weeks is going to be my electives...suppose to be 3 weeks, but bluf only la, do 2 weeks cukup makan. Haha. So, 1 month, then start fight another war......

Sad la, when i think of the " future " which lay aheads of me..............busy and busy and busy....forever busy. I don't even have time to be sick. That day fever also, continue study until fever also scare of me and run away. Sore throat also pity me, go away by himself at the end of the day although he would visit me again the next day. See la, how pathetic my life is. I know i shouldn't complain, i am much lucky than you gals who are overseas who needed to cook, needed to wash...i just need to STUDY.........but, life is difficult for me, hope you all can understand....

I am so not myself......

Hoping exams would come earlier....i don't have any mood to CARE what i get as results as long as i pass this EOS.....what ever B+....whatever la.....just give me a PASS....then i would be happy enough......

Hoping HARD !!!

sorry to ngam ngam cham cham....

Untitled....

1st time in my life, i can't think of any suitable title for a post.Usually, i would have the content ready in my mind few hours before i type it in and usually by the time i finish typing every thing, i would have a nice title in my mind. Maybe im just too lazy today? Or maybe i am just running out of creativity? Whatever la, i still like the 1st reason, haha, to cover myself up?

Been slacking since Friday, played game (The Sims....the game which every one was crazy few years ago? yeah...that The Sims). Suddenly saw it in my cupboard while i was walking around and so bring it out and start playing. Then, somehow, i got myself addicted to it and played for whole Friday night. Lol. Not to say, on friday, i went shopping with my aunt. So sorry for you all, waiting for me for CSU. I woke up very early that morning, around 8am just to fetch my aunt to SS15 (she want to buy jackpot, thats the only coffee shop that sells...so, have to go so far), had our breakfast and went to a nearby bank. Then, she suddenly told me that she want to go to a tailor shop. I was like " huh? what? thats not in the plan you told me yesterday? " then she said " change plan adi mah, aiyah, you later only go uni also can de la....come here so near adi...go lo ....". Fine, so, by the time she finish all the kik kik kok kok (means every little thing in hokkien), it is already 10.30 and by the time i reach home it is already 11.00. If i would go that time, i would reach IMU at 12...and you guys would have done with everything and heading to lunch? haha.

So, basically thats why i didn't show up. But still, i hope you guys had fun...CSU is always fun with you all around !!

Then saturday, plan to warm up myself and start 2nd round. But, again, i was so " committed " into The Sims, i started rearranging my notes at 8pm and finally realised that i had a BIG TROUBLE coming. I have like 133notes to finish within 2 weeks? Sounds so impossible? but i am going to make it a mission possible. So, i started and within 3 hours, i finish 8notes and wee, i went to play my dear Sims. Haha.

Today, plan to do as much as i can. Maybe 6 for afternoon, 6 for night? Hopefully la, my plan is always not reached. I would have go here and there, or do whatever i want.....OMG !!! My clothes are still in the washing machine, my mum is so going to get mad....see...family committment...thats why i can never reach my target...sigh..haha

Ok, guys, work hard !! Score well in EOS 3 !!!!

love,

p/s: oh, my oedema is subsiding...every thing is fine...

*hmm*

Been looking at the facebook quiz for so long...falling asleep soon.....yawn...

I think.....I AM Oedimic.....

Since few months ago, i had this weird feelings of why the rest of my family feel the food is salty while i only feel it as tolerable salty? As in little bit salty la, but still tolerable...but i thought maybe i got used to the outside food, so i can't feel much ( think about it now, how much outside food has i eaten? lol )

Then, things get worst nowadays, whatever my family says are salty, i don't feel the saltiness at all. I sort of lost my sensory towards salt...OMG. But then, i was too busy to care about it...until........more and more people are telling me that i am getting skinner and skinner while when i weighed myself at the weighing machine, i discover that my weight goes up instead of going down. Futhermore, i felt more easily thirsty than the others. The amount of water, tea, coffee i had each day i think is more than 8big cups per day. Imagine, i can already drink 6bottles of 500ml water from 6pm till 2am....and i haven add those water i drank during meals, during tea, during rest time blah blah. I didn't realised how much i drank until today......i counted and was horrified...from the figure 8 big cups, i doesn't mean each cup is 500ml right? 500ml is almost equal to 2-3normal cups....( although i admit my family use MUGs instead of Cups...my mum say not syok while drinking)

So, today, i talked to my aunt, and she CONFIRM i am getting skinner nowadays, but she also CONFIRM that my weight goes up....so, end up, she comes to a conclusion----- I AM OEDEMIC.....I HAVE WATER RETENTION IN MY BODY!!

Great....the other day, i was sneering at the newspaper which teach people how to take away water retention in body...and now, i kena balasan...i myself is having this problem.

I have no idea how i got this since my mother's cooking is very very plain. She don't put salt...haha....maybe.....maybe for these few weeks, i got this habit of drinking chinese tea and i keep toping up with waters from mineral bottles...and sort of got syok la...when i finish toping up with one bottle....okay...i know i am lame...but i already kena balasan...and i never say i am not lame....

Or maybe, i just got used to saltiness? Everytime i consume salty food, i would say " aiyah, never mind, once a while, finish it la....." and continue eating....ended up each time also going to same place to eat back same salty food? haha

So, i also don't know what to do...i guess, try the newspaper way? drink more plain water and not have any salt? sigh...why do i have this problem summore when i am so busy? DAMN !!

Thanx....

Thanx for the concern teng, and the rest, although you all don't come...at least you all encourage me tru MSN.

Im much better, sorry for being a ngam ngam cham cham person....this is my way of releasing stress...and i only ngam to those people whom i am very close to...so, you gals feel proud about being my chosen ones? haha

Going to finish 1st round soon...then i will take a rest on Friday or maybe do something light that day...and finally, boost myself again to do 2nd round. It might be a bit too late for me, since exams is in 2 weeks 3 days counting from now, but still, i think,there is no harm for me to try. If can finish, its good. If cannot, its my luck then.

A bit sien.....going to sleep soon....my dad is right....' study days, you don't sleep early coz you do PBL....exams days you don't sleep early coz you want to study hard.....normal holidays, you don't sleep early coz you want online play games la...chat la....blog la.....so...you tell me when you going to sleep early? " hahaha......typical my dad la.

Been wanting to ask a question very long, am i really sooo skinny? should i be a little bit more skinny like my mum say or should i be a little bit fatter? or should i just maintain? I would like to maintain or perhaps go down 3more kilos...but i know...someone would be there, telling me to eat more everyday !! haha...

Glad to have you all around beside me.....thanx for all the support, mentally, emotionally...physically ( applies to chen yi who teach me a lot !! ) ...love you all so much !!

p/s: yay....going to eat japanese buffet with CCB, Ramzi and WC ( perhaps? and CHEN YI? haha )....i feel so hungry now....sigh

I Had Enough....

Tired + Sick........i tried to show that i don't care that i am sick....i tried to show that i am fine......yet, all i can feel is, my body is getting feverish and indeed, i am not fine at all. Not brave enough to let my parents know that i am so severe, just told my mum i felt feverish, lucky my mum didn't touch me or she would have catch me to the doctor. But, even if i go see the doctor, it would be the same advice " rest more, drink more water, you are just stressed up, relax and stop studying for a day or 2"

ARE YOU KIDDING ME? STOP STUDYING? Takkan want me fail? Better not see doctor la, just anggap i am fine, i THINK i would be fine tmr....

See, even the blog is against me, my half pages of post is gone...stupid !!

Anyway, im just sore throat and fever, just now was headache and fever, but headache subsides after the nap, now sore throat and fever pula...haih

Everyone who sees me would say " Aiyo....FUIYO....you good la, you so smart, future can be BIG doctor ( important word....BIG ) no problem de la....you can graduate de....just remember next time to give me discount wor....."
HATE that phrase, famously told since last year......keep hearing the same phrase from so many people. But who knows when i suffer? Who knows how much i pay for getting to this place? Who knows what i was thinking while i was studying? WHo knows how much tears i shed....how much weight i gave for this course? All just so MENYAMPAHKAN.......see la, even sick also cannot tell anyone, dare not tell parent also, later they don't let me study and i die in exams.......sick also cannot rest, must keep going.......who knows all this difficulties?

Sorry, i am just a bit emotional unstable today. Cried twice today.....maybe because i am stress in the 1st place, now plus a sick, i lagi emotional unstable until i cannot control anymore. Once i cried, because my mum disappointed me...for a stupid reason i cried.......its for nasi lemak ....haha...now think also funny. My mum promised me to buy me nasi lemak this morning....but end up, i waited for her 2 hours starvingly...she came back and tell me she didn't buy so just wait a while and she will cook straight away. Seriously, i don't choi her straight away, just grab a bun and went upstairs soberly. When i reach my room, i cannot control my tears adi..and just cried. Lucky, it was just a short session and i sit up straight to continue studying ( i think not even 5 minutes cry...haha...coz study more important )......then after 30mins, my mum came up, knock softly on my door (she usually bang my door...lol), when she came in, she said sorry and tell me she forgotten to bring money so didn't buy for me. Then she see i don't choi her, she went out. Right after she went out, i cried again....because i felt so guilty. Its just a NASI LEMAK afterall. nothing big. Why should i be such a nuisance? Why should i show her i am angry and make her guilty and came up to say she is sorry? Sigh...i was so so angry with myself that i cried again.

Life is getting harder now, esp Exams periods. My brother told my mum that i would be okay, just tell me to relax...but i was fearing every hour that i cannot pass. So many stress build up to the stress mountain every day. There is so much to study, to remember, yet my brain is not cooperative, refuse to remember....

Sigh, sometimes, i just wonder, why i enter medicine? I would survive perfectly and beautifully in Business? I can go shopping la...go yam cha la...go here and there? why i cari pasal....come here....no nice clothes, everyday cincin cai cai, grab anything then wear adi....face always pale and eyes are drooping with a big black eye bag....sleep also not enough, appetite also low....don't want to eat...just want to study.....want to read comic want to play, want to dance...want to read novels, want to write blog, write diaries, write novels...but end up....need to study...then cannot do everything i want..........After one exams...there is another exams....then another exams.....always like this. After one exams...just rest not even one month, have to start studying again....even if no exams that month, still got PBL, always rush rush rush and RUSH.....time is always insufficient...i am SERIOUSLY tired with this kind of life.

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Should go study...its time...or i will never reach my target today.....see....when i write until climax...its always time and time to go do what? STUDY.....damn sien with this kind of life !!!

I HATE MYSELF !!

Pain...

Supposed to be study right now, as in star my day's work instead of continue with studying...lol

Been resting a lot this 2days, slow in proggression, but still do my best everyday ( or i will stranggle myself ). Maybe its because its weekends, and i really do not have moods to study during weekends. Come to think about it, last time, during previous summative ( both CVS, Respi & Heamato, GI) I make it firm that i do not study on Weekends, I will work extremely hard on weekdays and thats it, weekends are my favourite days to rest. =)

I thought i was being lazy for this EOS, in fact, i am not. Never in my memory that i had been so hard working. Imagine this is just Summative, for only 2 weeks plus, i already did 2 rounds ( cause now is 4 system, Summative is only 2 systems ). Imagine the workload i have, every day, without fail study into deep night...eh eh...no early morning. Haha.

My body is starting to rebel, i start to feel not so comfortable here and day after i woke up from my nap ( around 7pm? haha ). I felt feverish and i thought its a after-nap syndrome and went for a shower.....end up, i came out shivering. Lol. Looks like it is not only me who is sick, chen yi is down with high fever.....how high i don't know la...haha...presuming she has a thermometer and she measured it and tell me its high. Everyone's is starting to reach tired level....body starts to be immunocompromised.....

Just take care, ya...everyone...exams are important, i cannot defy that fact, but then, just try your best la, cannot finish 2 rounds mah cannot finish lo...at least you finish 1st round and will at least have some memory in your head....come on, you did it in Summative....have some confident okay ( trying to say that phrase comfidently, but i feel so no confident at all....haha =P )

Anyway, i guess, thats it, i should really start studying...maybe not do a lot la...just try my best, at least finish my parasite !! Take care ya !!

Damn Sien

Study study and study....every day, what i did and is still doing ....is STUDY.

A bit slow today, maybe due to the heavy topics i have, only on my 9th notes of the day...but seriously, cannot tahan anymore....

going to be 3am soon....maybe....i will sleep at 4am?

sigh....

exams can really make u sien till you want to jump into the drain !! =P

Reporting my DAy?? haha...

Suppose to be studying my last note of the day on Anti-TB drugs....but well, i had enough for today, so just forget about it la...

Been very stressful today, studying from morning till night. Imagine this, i start studying at 10am till around 11.15am which is when my dear vice secretary of Yoga Club interupted me.....but its in my plan to meet her la....so well, its not her fault.So, i left my Cardiomyopathy notes half way and start discussing with her on yoga T-shirts, then went to E Lab to decide on which design.

Blah blah, finally everything ended at around 12pm and i set off home. At 1st wanted to stay till 3pm, but then, i used 1hr 15 mins to read like 4 pages of note is considered very slow to me, which means that i cannot concentrate well in IMU, hence, i decided to go home. Reach home about 12.30, had my lunch and start piah-ing. At 1st, i thought i can finish like 4 notes before 2.30 strikes, but i over-estimated myself. Haha. End up, i finish around 3pm and went down to play piano.

Got a new song today, its Variation of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. Okay, the name sounds childish, but trust me, its a very hard song. That " Nothing better to do " Mozart go and change the usual twinkle twinkle little start into a much much harder song, make it from 1page into 10pages? haha. If you want to listen, come to me, i have a record in my hp. Lol. I simply love that song. Then keep practicing my old song, Sonata by Mozart also. Realised that i ignored most of the expressions, so i re-do everything all over again, making a lot of horrible songs ( cause its difficult to plau correctly and put in expressions)

Anyway, finally, without my knowing, time flew past and it was 4pm. I was like " WTH !!! WHY SO FAST? " So, went back to studies. Finish another 2 notes before 5.30 and went to bed, planning to have a nap. However, while i was going into deep sleep, my mum bang my room door and ask me to open up. I looked at the clock and cursed.....it is just 6PM !!!! Anyway, my mum came in, clean the whole room, making lots of noises until i cannot sleep anymore, so i woke up and continue studying till 8.30 when i seriously cannot take it anymore and went for a rest for 2 hours.

Finally, 10.30, i started again, but bad things happened. I am suppose to read up Nasal Neoplasm, but i had been reading the same line 3 times and it still don't go into my mind. Felt like crying that time. But, i have no time to cry, so, switch to something more simple...haha...psycho issu on Hemophilia. Lol.

Then, study study study, finally finish 4 notes again, suppose to finish up Anti-TB drug and PUD...but who cares la, i want to sleep adi...too tired...and too stressful !! Sigh !!

What a day.........

Felt like writing but nothing to write....so " report" my day loh.....hahaha

Study hard everyone !!! +oil !! I am hungry !!!!

Primary School.........

Today, finally got the time and courage to go back to my dear old primary school. It's a very old and small ones, located in a small town called Sungai Way, most of the students at my time are Indians, but...well, its different now.

Anyway, my school now, has a new hall, a big one, which was built a year after i left that school. The rest of the buildings are still the same, except that the office is relocated to the new building.

Was actually sad when i look back at the class i used to sit in. It was.......shabby.........old.......nearly spoilt.........it frightens me actually. To me, it seems like yesterday that i left primary school, it seems a week ago, i was celebrating with my friends in that class, all of us were laughing happily, my teacher was cracking jokes.............all, seems to happened recently. But, reality is cruel, the classroom is not occupied now, i do not know whether it is too cracky or not enough students........it is just left there, alone, no more childrens' laughter, tears, no more angry frustrated teacher shouting at the students....it is just there, thinking back at the good old memories.

Saw 2 teachers today. Urm, correction, 3...coz one wasn't my form teacher, but she was one of the people who help to push me into Catholic High school. If i am never in Catholic High, i will never be the doreen today. Trust me, sometimes, everything changes with all this kind of " small, insignificant " people. Anyway, the teachers are already OLD. Haha. They need like 5 minutes to remember who i am, and when i told them, i used to be in this this class...my classmates are XX, YY, ZZ....they only " Ohhhhh....You......i remember....blah blah " There are lots of strands of white hairs compared to last time ( see...i don't contribute much to the head of white hair k...im good girl...lol). One of them is still cheerful, happy even she got her cervix and ovaries resected and even think positively even when she was diagnosed with PUD. Wow...amazing huh...her cheerfullness. But, there was one, i felt she is a bit moody though...maybe she seen 3 deaths recently..and felt soooo old?

Overall, its a good visit. I wonder when will be the next time i go back again? never? That moody teacher is actually right, she said " when you come next time, most of the teachers you know won't be here anymore, either died out of too old to work". Sigh....true lo...this time also,there are sooo many young lovely female teachers......i actually did wonder where did all the rest of old teachers who taught me few years back. Haha.

Primary school, i never know so much had changed since i left........how did yours' changed? Have you ever gone back? if not.....its almost time you go back and visit..............

Tired....

Been slacking for 2 days now.....

i know its not the right time for me to slack, but im just tired, i needed more sleep...maybe i over studied few days ago, in order to reach the target of the day, i can stay up till 4am and wake up at 10am again. Then, i went out to few places with my parents and ended up i didn't get any nap at all.

So yea, maybe im going to recharge myself this few days and then work again !!

Not really feeling stress for this exams, maybe the time is not there yet........hoping and hoping that my stress level would not exceed the last one since i nearly wanted give up medicine for the last exams....

Went to Qi Cheong Gai today, the CNY new year was great there. Most of the shops are totally covered in RED. Yes...covered, but its not covered by red cloth...but those lanterns, flowers, some decorative stuff made up from Red packets, so in the end, the shop is so FULL and PACKED with all the stuff hanging all over, it look RED from outside. Haha.

Was Mad with a magazine called Mina these few days too,its a fashion magazine from japan, which i never read in the past and i am still thinking why i ended up reading it ( maybe im just too tired to touch book, so i pick it up from my aunt who is a regular reader). Anyway, it was much much better than i expected. Usually, the magazine which i picked up from the floor in my cousin's house is real LAME. The content is usually hanging around some leng chai guys or some super stars...blah blah...then give you some personality test, some handphone pal( last time when i read Mickey Magazine its still pen pal, now is handphone pal adi...haha), some other useless stuff la. But this MINA, was something betterm at least there is an interview with a STAR...yes just ONE.....and then mostly on clothes, fashion which is going in trend later, then teach you how to dress and makeup ( lightone la...but its better than those malaysian magazine, malaysian magazine way really tak boleh pakai)....so yea...maybe thats why i find it quite amusing...haha...and got a bit addicted...

Alright, i guess im starting to crap again....better go to bed again ( i just woke up at9pm and after 30mins, im going back to bed...haha).

Work hard ya...to those who are working hard...don't over do or you would end up like me....

Getting Mad

Sien....is the only word i can find now.....

sigh...

been working like a mad people since tuesday, after my last day of pathology rotation which symbolize the end of rotation and the approaching exams.....

planned to finish the rest of all my 4 systems in 10days, maximum 12 days (i think i need 11day with the speed im going on now ). Anyway, i can't belive that we have like almost 130notes to study...bloody hell......* sorry for cursing...im just sien and stressed up...*

Anyhow, im going to try my very best...study hard, practice hard for OSCE and OSPE....then walk into the exams hall confidently.

Phew.....

Im so so so so so DAMN STRESS !!!! Opps...not stress....but SIENNNNN................see la, i even start to Syok Sendiri now...that shows how much sien i am now.....hehehe

Work Hard everyone !! Gambaremasho !!

Finally....

Yay....my blog has finally be set to the right way it should be set. Lol

I am suppose to be sleeping right now, so i can get up early tmr to study. I just realised i only has like 6weeks to go for my exams...and im still in the pathetic CVS....omg...its like one week per system....how bad....gosh....i need to brush up...seriously...

Well, got to go...

Kawaii No Orang Asli

Hmm, actually didn't plan to write anything about this....but then, after these 3 days of " living" with them, i felt like it is a very important and valuable experience which not everyone got the chance to go through it.

Anyway, let's start with Gombak Orang Asli Hospital, why is it call Orang Asli Hospital? Becoz there got a lot of Orang Asli? Or becoz it was opened by Orang Asli? No No.....its because, it is purposely set up for the orang asli in whole malaysia. ONLY orang asli can be admitted, when i say ONLY...means ONLY, if you chinese got accident there, want to admit, pai seh la, they will send you to the nearest hospital. This is the only one hospital for Orang Asli, i do not know why, maybe because government feel that they are not important enough? or maybe because Orang asli scare of us, and if the hospital is full of us ( i mean non-orang asli k), they will be frightened out of their wits?

Thats not the point, lets talk about something more important. The location.....trust me....you would NEVER EVER expect to see a HOSPITAL in that area. =.=" Behind the hospital area, there is a river and behind the river, its JUNGLE. Then, right infront of the hospital is a small pathetic road ( but don't play play, got rapid KL going around ok...somemore go CHOW KIT leh....haha...this was a joke between us med students la....Orang Asli go CHOW KIT? ) Infront of this small, one lane for a direction road, there is a row of shops built of coarse cement or just normal WOOD. Mainly are food stalls and kedai runcit, small and nothing inside actually. The food is....urm, sorry to say im NOT VERY adventurous, i only eat at the only Nasi Kandar shop which looks the most HIGH CLASS there. Anyway, right behind the shops are...........YES, you are right....JUNGLE. hahaha.....Next to the row of shops, its the museum Orang Asli, well air conditioned, well built and overall, its a nice place to hid during hot days and of coz, when you have nothing to do la. Its the perfect place to sleep, since there is no one there....not a soul except the recorder playing a ghostly music sang by the orang asli. The floors are tiled and clean, so if you want a place to sleep, take a tilam and sleep there...lol

The hospital itself is a 3 building hospital ( aiseh...sounds great right....3 BUILDINGS summore...haha). Which 3? the main Hospital which is just WARDS ( there is no patient in wards....so usually is just a place for nurse to chit chat and walk around...haha), another building is the out patient department building...trust me, its the only building which has a lot of peoples ( when i say a lot, the number is still under 10 okay....haha..but got people mah and more than 2...so, must consider as a lot ), in the same building, there is a pathetically small X Ray Room, a equally small lab mainly to test TB, the admin office ( which is the nicest room of the whole hospital......imagine a normal office situated in old old place...of coz its the best la...) and some sterialising place. Oh, forget to add, there is the only place where there is staff toilet and labeled with gender....i will tell u why gender is important later.....

Last but not least, the transit area and Accident and Emergency department. UH has a whole floor,wide spaced, full of high tech stuff A&E, but our dear A&E here is just one floor and half a wing of the building....lol. The rest is used up as TRANSIT Building. Whats transit? to transit patients to another hospital? No No...i told you what, orang asli only stays here...they don't stay in other hospital. The kononnya Transit area is actually a hotel room for the patient's family. Haha. It looks like Sri Malaysia Hotel, except that they are not equipped with air con. This has something to do with the Orang Asli Lifestyle actually. They LOVES their family, so when they MUST be admitted to hospital, they MUST bring their family together or they would rather go away and die. Haha. So, when the family come, where to stay? Takkan Camp in hospital area and light fire to cook meh? You thought in Jungle kah....haha. So, stay there loh. But then, later on, the transit area is also the ward for the stable patients. AGAIN, its because they LOVE their family. So when they are stable, the DO NOT STAY in the wards ( thats why wards are empty lo...haha). Imagine how much they LOVE their family, the transit building is just opposite the ward building.....but they cannot tolerate and MUST stay together.......DAMN CUTE.

Talking about our dear Orang Asli, there is 3 main tribes and each got like 6 subtribes under it...so, got like 18 diff tribes altogether.....eh eh, wait, i forget to add the pigmies in.....so its 19. Yeah...malaysia got Snow white and the 7 dwafs de....lol...except that snow white is not white but brown and the dwarfs are not ONLY 7 in number but 100 of them. Lolz. Its very easy to recognise them......just compare them with see teng....haha......if they look old but shorter than see teng...then CONFIRM is orang asli.....lol. Sorry la teng, im just trying to sound funny......coz if say they are short, you all cannot imagine mah. Sorry la. Seriously, the highest of them is only 155cm? I met an orang asli yesterday, he is 17 ( although he told me he is 13) and i have to keep look down at him when i talk to him. I guess, he is about, 140cm? about 2heads shorter than me. So, Teng, you one head shorter than me mah....when u see them....u can laugh at them....lol. Joking joking...don't angry la....

Some of the Orang Asli stay near the urban area......oh, one important thing, no matter where they stay,they WEAR CLOTHES okay...don't think they only cover with leaves..............................BUT, for children....haha...they wear shirts only, didn't cover their bottom....lol (thats what my prof say la...i din see any uncovered children in hospital..lol). They are mainly nice people. shy shy de....when talk to you....yes also nod their heads, no also nod their heads and i think if you scold them, they will also nod their heads. Lol. They don't look at you striaght into your eyes...but like olden days girl, head low low and talk soft soft. hahaha....i REALLY WANT TO LAUGH when i talk to them. But, they are nice la, seriously, kind and never stingy of giving you a very fast smile ( fast means, this second they show you a smile, next second the smile disappear..)

Oh, their lifestyle, they live mainly on own give la. Means, they hunt for deer, rats * yes, they hunt rat for food not to take the rats away*, they catch fish, prawns, " shui mu", they plant their own vege ( mainly cabbage....urgh, imagine living on cabbage mainly...i can die!! ), crops, they have their own chickens but according to my prof, only children got to eat chicken.....so sweet....give the young ones to eat better food. Their houses are actually made of wood, sticks, some smarter ones will make from Bamboo. Not very strong houses yet very cooling. But think about it, they can easily build a new one when its old....so, got new house every 2-3 years?haha...i stay in my house 11 yrs liow lo.....but they ALWAYS got new house. Their water supply mainly is from River, but there is a big problem which i shall talk later. Imagine a river.....long slim......they divide into 3 parts. 1st part, highest off the ground would be for cooking and drinking.....2nd part of washing and bathing and last part is for urination and defecating. MAIN PROBLEM is......what is your village is under another village? so your 1st part of river becomes the 3rd part of the river for the other village.........urm.....imagine urself k....haha....Besides that, they also use bamboo to drain water from the spring water up in the mountains....sometimes they also collect rain water. Acid rain also drink...haih....

Their belives, mainly animism which is belive in wind, tree stone ( they say if there is hurricane, means someone step into a kawasan larangan and that culprit must throw a drop of blood into the hurricane to apeace the anger of the god.....but think about it, HURRICANE wor....won't that person got suck into it? ). Yea, animism.....but DO NOT BE SURPRISE if they tell you " saya, islam tapi saya christian". lol. You can't blame them actually. What happen is, maybe few years back, some islamic ppl came and they " wanted" to become islam....so they practice practice....then few years later, some christian come and they think christian is also good.....so they also practice christian. Lol. BUT, they proudly tell you, they still belive in wind gods and tree gods. haha. Everything goes back to rule zero la...they are still animism.

Customs, not much being told actually, only one thing is.....GUYS must not see unmarried girls who are not in proper clothing. There was once a case which happen in that hospital. A guy student went to the ward's toilet, the toilet is not labelled for guy or girls....any gender can use la. So, he open the toilet door and " oh O" he say a girl squatting and of coz didn't wear anything la.....so ah, this guy was FORCED to marry that girl. In the end, don't know got marry or not...haha...imagine, 20yr old go get married...summore becoz you go to a toilet see a girl there and need to marry. Thats why ah, we students were told not to use the toilet in the wards and go to the toilet in either A&E or Out patient department. Yet, A&E is dangerous la.....coz its in the same building as transit building....so, who knows a girl goes into male toilet? hahaha.

Oh,i suddenly remembered the canteen. You all must wonder why i risk my life of getting diarrhoea and still go to eat outside food?WEll, coz i have no choice. Lol. THere is a CANTEEN in the hospital.....but a non-operating canteen. Lol. It is NEVER open and i didn't even SEE anyone go there before. Lol.

Orang asli's hospital was actually a good place for the Orang Asli la. Imagine, the hospital provide medication, treatment, boarding and FOOD. How nice....the best thing is....THEY DO NOT NEED TO PAY. hahaha. Please la, say adi mah, Orang asli, where got income de? how to pay?Summore, if they are admitted due to screening ( eg, TB), they will be picked up from their kampung maybe in jungle in Kelantan and sent to Gombak, KL then when they are given holidays by doctors, got car send them back to kampung........then when its time to come back ....got car go pick them...and finally, after finish treatment....got car send them back summore. Oh, and if they need to go H KL or some other hospital, got car fetch them also. AND.....the best thing again.......ALL ARE FREE trips....lol.....no need pay for taxi....

One good thing you must always remember if in future you come into contact with an orang asli.......DO NOT FORCE THEM. BUT..............Bribe them. Haha. Make them understand what you doing to them....why they must take medication......and how long. Tell them if you finish this medication, i let you have this for dinner la...i take you to fishing la...or i bring you to pick flowers la...etc etc....just like pujuk a children like that. If you force them, you will notice that while you are not looking, they already run to some other places where you would never force them again. Lol.

Alright, will talk about their languages and the difficulties i met during my interview with my cute TB orang asli patient tmr.....now no mood....hehe....

Orang Asli = Fun....don't you think so.....

Results Day............

I didn't thought of reaching home so early for today, since yesterday i thought the results is coming out at 5pm and i need to collect it before going home. Was thinking how to get away from Chen Yi and CCB asking me about my results when i was so happily told that the results is to be informed via netmail.

Well, although i went to IMU for nothing, at least i was lucky enough to meet Jane June coming out from MPH after her last paper of EOS 5, OSPE. So, we went to have lunch for an hour plus, then i went to IOI mall. While driving, my mind cannot really concentrate on the cars on the road and i knew i am tired. I am falling asleep very very soon.

Lucky me that i went into IOI mall fast enough, grab the clothe which my aunt ask me to buy,went and wash my face and off i go, on the way back to home. I felt worst after washing my face, my eyes become more and more heavy...lol....yet, i made it home safely. My face might have been very tired since my mum asked me whether i kena fired today in Gombak Hospital that made my face look so tired. LOl. Well, i didn't get any fired today, i just got pissed off. I never thought that i might be one of the very very little people who actually went home and study for TB, leprosy and NPC. Never mind...its all over now...

15minutes more to go and results will be out. My eyes are closing........but i want to see my results before going to bed. I think i did badly......and yeah, its the time for me to face the reality of the " study world"....

Good Luck to myself....sigh....

OMG ...

God....1st thing that i regret doing in this year......i go and kepo change the theme of my blog.....how stupid....now great....all my links are GONE.......stupid blog....how can it so?

Sigh....i lost few friends' Links....gone forever.....

PATHETIC !!! Im just so FURIOUS now......GERAM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Choices ....

Went to Gombak today, was very impressed by how the orang asli lives, their daily lifes, their freedome, start to salute them...

Anyway, saw a 17year old end stage renal failure patient today....and Dr Sasi came out with this question...asking us what we would do if we put us into himself...

17year old guy, has 10 siblings, home at Gua Musang, Kelantan ( somewhere interior jungle ), End stage Renal failure, need dialysis 3times per week at H KL, Was having generalised odema since 5months ago for 3 months and now there is no more oedema yet his renal failure problem persists. Having dozens of antiHypertensive drugs. There is no one with him in the hospital and judging using current technologies, he is likely to spend the rest of his life in Gombak Hospital unless he want to die faster.....Is trying to convince the doctor that he is fine and healthy ( maybe so he can go back home?)

Now, what would you do if you are him, you are uneducated, do not know there is such thing as Renal Transplant, even if you know and got a kidney from your siblings, you do not have any money to buy medications that are used in Againt Graft Versus Host adverse reactions......your 2 choices are.....
1. Go home to your family, live a shorter life
2. Spend the rest of your life in the Hospital without meeting your family again....

Surprisingly, i choose 1st option which according to Dr Sasi the option which that guy would also choose. Why would i choose option 1? Hmm, maybe i cared more of my family than anything else in this world? I asked my mum & my aunt, both of them chose option 2, wanting to live longer......rather abandone family but live longer.
-sigh-

What is your decision?