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A Land Of Sweetness And Sourness...Sometimes with Bitterness....The Exact Land that a Human Walks.... -all in all....I LOVE STRAWBERRY...hehe- ~to know me better, its to know me tru my blog~

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Pathetic ~ Sigh

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Annoyed !!

Alright, basically, today, i live in annoyance....urm...is it a correct word? whatever la, even this is making me becoming annoyed.

Well, let's see why I'm so annoyed....
1. I'm not observant and sympathetic enough.
What happened was, i happened to have a little chat with my neighbour today. Actually, i was just curious of where my neighbour is going for her Patner Medical School. From what i heard is that she is leaving for Aberdeen, however, i checked with Jackie last friday ( or rather he checked with me ) and i realised that it is either his infomation about the last M105 people going to Aberdeen is wrong or my mum's info for me is wrong. Anyway, thats not why i am annoyed. The topic changed from Aberdeen to doggie since i let my dearest doggie for some fresh air in the garden and i saw his face was full of sadness ( by the way, i forgot to mentioned, i was talking to the father, the one going to Aberdeen is the daughter ). Then, to convert his sadness, i asked him about his pet dog, Ginger. I haven't seen Ginger for some time, and i thought Ginger went for a trip or whatever. However, the father told me that Ginger was dead in March. OMG ~ All this while, i haven't realised Ginger was dead.....sigh ~ And furthermore, i was letting dear Tut Tut running wild in the garden, right infront of his eyes. I just got annoyed so suddenly.......

2. My father annoyed me...
Well, i don't know other friends have the same point of view as me or not, but i would like to stress out that, having a family who is health concern when you are a medical student is very troublesome and tiring. All this while, my dad was very health concern and i never stop him since i think being health concern has it's own good, however, i feel that at first, i can still tolerate with him for lecturing me about what he had read and what he learnt from the news paper. If it is something i haven't learned before or something that i do not know, it is alright to me, i just listen. However, to lecture me something, i had already learned, and worst still, the information he is lecturing on me is totally a big mistake is really annoying me. I tried to talk to him properly by telling him patiently that this is not the way, the correct way is blah blah blah...but he, instead of trusting my information which i got from a Medical Professor, starting to ignore, to doubt and worst, TO REJECT and TO INSIST that I AM WRONG !!!! I really don't know how to communicate with him. He thinks that the news paper's, the editor or some column author's stupid information is so much true and better than what was taught by a professor whom he PAID for to teach his dear daughter. I really cannot stand it anymore, i just walked away before he finish his lecture. If he thinks what he said is right and refuse to take in the correct fact I'm telling him, Fine, go ahead....i already said what i want......the worst thing he said today is ..." YOU DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND THE MEDICAL ETHICS AND YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT MEDICAL ETHICS WITH ME !!! ".....EXCUSE ME...who is the one who don't even KNOW a single bit about medical ethics and arguing? Never mind, let it be...i lazy to argue with a stubborn old man !!

3. I got annoyed with myself
Just because a little thing of not being able to go out and Yam Cha, i got annoyed and finally ended up with an even hungry stomach. You know what, my dear batch mate, HSN is actually right, when you are angry, you actually feel hungry faster, at least that is what i felt just now. But, after a nice meal of cereal ( weird right...taking cereal as supper ) , my anger went away....

4. Again, annoyed with myself...
This time, is not because I am hungry. This happened after i had my cereal and was feeling rather sleepy. I realised that i haven't reach my target for the week. -Sigh- Well, i was actually revising Heamatology System this week and i plan to use 2 weeks for the whole 26 notes ( very little right? ) and i felt like revising again if i have more time since the exams is at next month. So, i set off with a target of reaching at least 13 notes for the week, however, till just 5 minutes ago, i counted and realised that i just studied 9 notes....and most of them aren't difficult notes. Worst still, tmr i would like to spend some time on Jane June's autograph and if possible to take a good rest since for the past week, i had been suffering from severe lack of sleep. But right now, i am still 4 notes away from the target, yet i do not want to give up my rest nor Jane June's autograph, and hence, i landed myself in dilema......and THAT leads to my dear annoyance....

Well, i guess, i better go sleep, no point studying when i am annoyed and couldn't concentrate hard. It would be a waste of time. Better sleep well....

I never got annoyed so many times in a day.....was is due to me PMS-ing? but i have no history of PMS..........

sigh...crapping again ~

Thursday, November 15, 2007

To Change or Not to...

Some one asked me today, " should i change or not? "
I was actually startled by this question, since i never think deeply about it before. I admit that i changed a lot from young till now especially my mind set, but i never stop by and think whether is it a good thing to change or not.
However, thanks to the question, i finally look back now, and concluded that it is a correct thing that i changed.

Well, due to confidentiality, i would only say a little bit here. Actually, i can't really grasp much of her problem, since i was unexperiance. So, what happened was, this person thinks that she is changing from someone who used to love to be in a big group of people, now thinks that actually being alone isn't a bad thing and she quite enjoy it. So, i think, .argh.....i also don't know what she thinks....lolz

Anyway, to tell the truth of what I am thinking after listening. I think personally, to change or not to change, that decision lays in your own hand. No one is going to say you are wrong or you are right for changing. No one can predict the future so they are not qualified to say you MUST or MUSNT change, which, include me. My advice would be, let it be, let your own personality decide. Body do not lie and so do expressions do not lie. When a certain way is nice, comfortable to you, you like it and you are happy, you will eventually change and go into that way/ direction or whatever. But, if after you change, say like 2-3 weeks and you feel it extremely annoying, you will eventually change back. Usually, people change, because they are not happy about their life and their attitude now. They got disappointed due to this type of characteristic...hence, they think it would be nice to change. So, what i really think is, since you are disappointed with this type of characteristic, why not make a change? who knows you might like it?

Look back today, i think i changed too. I finally learned to put down stuff....haha. Im not so执着anymore. I don't hold to something tightly, i belive that if it is mine, no matter how far i leave, whereever i go, that thing would come back to me.But the bad thing is, like what chen yi said, i tend to bear everything on myself...keep everything in my heart and ended up, one day, just burst. Haha. I really don't know how many burst out i would have before going to PMS. Sigh ~

I guess im really PMS-ing.....not feeling myself whole day today....my mind is very mix with so many things, unable to concentrate hard which i can easily done it before...sigh.

yea, maybe i should just leave it here....whatever..

p/s: i felt so happy for the 1st time for carefully observing people...lolz...and im glad that my observation are correct...

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

TAGGED ~

Okay...i don't usually play this...but since im tired of studying today...i will try my best to do whatever it is required....

1. The most recent pictures of yours........

2. A picture of you making a peace sign.....
3. A picture of you and you friends....
4. A picture of you at a weird/ random place
cukup randome le gua...haha...

5. A picture of you in black and white....
urm...a bit difficult...
hahaha...paiseh...don't have....skip then...

6.a picture of you with a weird face...
urm....can ah? pass la...

7. A picture of you in black colour shirt....
use back the last pic la...easier...no need waste my space...

8. A picture of you in red colour shirt...
use back Pix 1 la...

9. A picture of you in green colour shirt....
use back pix 2 or 3 la....as u like...haha

10.A picture of you wearing halloween costume...
don't have...coz i never celebrate halloween...hehe

11.

ok...i had enough....don't want play adi...

Sunday, November 11, 2007

My Poor MP3

-Sigh-

My MP3 is gone, since till today, till this moment, i still cannot find it anywhere no matter how i search for it, up and down my room, i turn my whole room over, make a mess with all my notes and books and goodness knows some other papers which i don't even know whether they are useful or not.

Anyway, NOPE, i can't find it....not even in my car and the 100yen Shop in SS2......which, i suspected to be the last place i drop my dear MP3. I actually WENT BACK to that shop after failing to contact them through phone and asked whether they found something or not, since i remember that was the only time when my hand bag was tilted while i was searching for the wool for jane june and it might had fallen out without me knowing. Don't know why, when the truthful shop keeper told me that they didnt found anything...i didn't feel disappointed nor sad.....maybe, i just feel...its fated to lost it. The last time, it should had been gone but i was lucky to have jane june with me and she found back for me. But, im not so lucky this time perhaps, that i just can't get it back anymore. Well, with or without MP3, is okay to me, i can still survive....i survived the time, when i didn't have MP3 but only the loyal radio in my car...haha..and i shall continue to let the loyal radio serve me till the end of IMU life.

But, these few days, i kept thinking...........about some curious facts which i couldn't understand.
1. why would i have the memory of me putting the MP3 into my bag before i start off to 1utama that day? Is it an illusion that i made up to cover my carelessness or was it a truth that i DID put it in...if its a truth, it MEANS, i did bring back from IMU to home?
2. If my bag is tilted somewhere along the road, why would those lighter stuff such as piece of tissue paper, my neckless, piece of papers, my lip gloss which i place ABOVE my MP3 didn't fall out and got disappear along with my MP3 but they remain in the bag while my MP3 gone somewhere else?
3. I don't remember my bag got tilted except the only time while i was squating in 100yen shop in SS2 and i remembered before i left the shop, i look back at the floor and i was walking up and down that particular isle...if i dropped it, won't i had found it before i leave the shop?
4. No opposite sex come near me in 1utama. Yes, i did left my aunt and mum at a shop and went looking for Jackie's birthday present...but i got a very sensitive feeling of standing too close to an opposite sex, so if the thief is a opposite sex which USUALLY is......they don't get a chance.

So, with all these doubtful evidence, i have to admit to my aunt's theory....my MP3 got pick-pocketed, and IT MUST BE A GIRL. Well, im not surprised actually.....my aunt got pick-pocketed once in 1 utama too, hers was a handphone, but its a very very old hand phone with almost 0 value...haha...just that she has few photos which are valuable, such as my dead grandpa's photo etc......and at that time, no opposite sex came near her too since i was with her all the time in Female's clothing department in Jusco. So, yea, i just have to admit, my MP3 got stolen.

-SIGH-

So, dear friends, whoever is going to 1 Utama, careful of your valuables, don't put them at the small pocket which is on the bag...its very trendy to have small pockets on the bag nowadays, don't think you close it properly or tied the string on the pocket...whatever....don't put any valuables there...pick pocket it anywhere...and to my horror....they are girls.....trust me....girls don't look innocent as they are last time....sigh....

Be Careful when going to 1 Utame esp your Handphones.....they aim for your handphones and 2ndly your MP3, but not your purse...maybe coz the purse is too big ( girls purse are getting bigger and bigger....haha ). Don't think you won't be so " LUCKY", i said the same thing to my aunt last time and i got the same " luckiness" this time....DO BE CAREFUL....or you will regret like i am....

Thursday, November 08, 2007

hehe...My Master Piece...

Well, i had already given out my master piece to my dearest godsister....so, i only has the pictures left with me...sort of feeling sad for given it out...but still, at the same time, felt glad that i gave her since her response really made up for all the sadness from giving that to her...

Enjoy...















Sunday, November 04, 2007

Changes?

From This......
I changed into...
This

AND, from this....
I Changed into...

THIS....

haha...
AND





So...how do i look? Nice? Horrible? haha...Some said im matured..and some lost contact friends suddenly contact me and start asking am i sick coz i look pale..hehe...

So..YOU DECIDE !!


Finally......My Master Piece !!

Phew.....finally, im done with it....my 1st hand made scarf.

I took a very very long time in making it, say, about, june till now? haha. Well, not that this scarf took a lot of time, but the process in learning is extremely long. Imagine, of that long long period, i only took 4-6days making this scarf, the rest, was spent in learning how to make, in training to control the strength of making each line.

Of course, of that period, too many things occured, chinese singing competition, buddhist camp, i broke down and cried due to some business which clear off all my mood, then rotation started, then i came back for the final night of chinese singing competition, then rotation ended, only i started to re-learn everything i learned before so many things occured. Haha. Pathetic right? Then, not that after i learned, i can straight away proceed into making the real scarf i want to gift Jane June. No way, at least this is not the way my mum think. She fished out a roll of used up wool and asked me to practice making a scarf there. I was grumbling and grumbling back then, but until i finished making the scarf when the whole roll of wool ended, only i realised that my work was terrible. Haha. Since i was rushing, thinking i can finish the scarf before my term starts, but what it turn out is holes here and there because i didn't bother to hold the wool tightly and let it slipped. Then, the measurement was terrible too. I didn't bother to check how many knots i need to make in one line, i just follow whatever number i want, so it turn out to be a weird shape.Furthermore, some knots i pulled too tightly and yet some i didn't pull, hence, it turn out to be in a very distorted way. Lolz. Funny right?

My mum tore it open when she saw my 1st piece of work and asked me to re-do. Well, you couldn't blame her actually since even I couldn't accept that work. So, i re-do the 2nd time, and the same thing occured except that the number of holes become lesser, there is a square coming out ( scarf suppose to be rectangle ) and the distorted become milder. Hence, re-do and re-do, for Nth time, until i lost count of the number of scarf my mum pulled away and i proceed into my term.

When my term started, i became very busy with school work and study. PBL every week, and usually by weekend, i would be exhausted to do more things except study. That was a very tired and pathetic period and i hardly touch my scarf. Finally, after my 1st summative exams, i went to start doing a little bit of a new scarf and surprisingly, my mum said i can proceed to the real scarf or else i shall never be able to give Jane June a 2007 birthday present before she left IMU for UK. haha. Real sarcastic, but its true. She also made me to promised to be very careful and if there is any holes, i should stop doing and tore it open.

So, i started the real thing, but things wasn't as smooth as i think. I can't seem to be satisfied with myself for the 1st 5 lines. Hence, i tore and tore, until during Raya break, i finally found a strength nice enough to make the real thing. So, the 2days before Raya Break ended, i really "start" the real thing and at the same time i was doing the rebonding of my hair. Haha. But thankful with the rebonding, i was able to sit there for 6 hours without complaining and my hands didn't stop knitting. By the end of the day, i was so happy to see a bit of results coming out. That night, i continue knitting until 3am which was when i really cannot stand anymore and went to bed.

The next day, i spent another 6 hours knitting. I have to stop not because i have class the following day, but because i ran out of wools. Haha. Pathetic. I thought with 3 rolls, it should be sufficient to make a scarf, but im wrong. It isn't enough, unless you want a half scarf for a scarf. Haha. So, the following week, i went back to the 100yen shop which i bought the wools and got a bad news there. I found the same old rack which i found my wools, but there is no such combination for my scarf ( i bought a packet consisting 3 rolls, 2 light brown and 1 dark brown ). I thought i must be blur eyes, so i keep searching until the shop keeper approached me. So, after enquiring, the shop keeper told me that my combination of colours was shifted to another 100yen shop.

Sigh, i thought that maybe i can find my wools in other shop which are not a retail 100yen shop, since the next nearest shop is either at Bukit Tinggi, Klang or SS2, or Taman Conought ( goodness knows where ). But, in other shops, which include Macy at Chi Cheong Kai which mainly retail on wools, DO NOT HAVE MY WOOLS. Its either the colour is not compatible or the thickness is not compatible. Well, i can't blame those shops actually since they imported china product and mine are Japan product. Hence, i made up my mind to visit any of the shops if i have a chance.

Finally, last thursday, i remembered i need to go to the UOB bank in Kota Damansara to get my ATM card ( don't ask me why i need to go so far coz i won't tell you ) and i need to bypass SS2 to get to Kota Damansara. You know what it signified? It means my CHANCE came..muahaha !! So, i visited the SS2 100yen shop but to find they do not have th same combination too, but they have the colours in other package. My mum was the Heroin of the day, She saw i was very sad and disappointed, so she approached the Shop keeper and asked him whether i can take the colours i want from other package to make up my combination and the shop keeper was so nice that he allow me to do so...HOOOORAY !!!

So, i started a little bit on thursday since when i got back from Kota Damansara and 1 Utama late that day. Then, Friday, which is yesterday, I work Full Blast. Haha. 12 Hours of knitting....actually its a very rough estimation, since i started doing at 1pm and ended up at 3.30am the next day, i minus of 1 hour for rest and 1 hour for dinner which, actually didn't take so much time. HeHe.

Today, finally, i finished up the whole thing and started the trimming work and the fringe work. Till just now around 11pm, before i started this post, i ended. OMG, its 12 am adi, means i ended 1 hour already. Hehe.

I actually felt a bit sad for giving away my baby scarf....sigh, my master piece, Usually i don't give people my master piece but keep it for my own use. 2 reasons, 1. usually 1st master piece would be very ugly. 2. I don't feel happy giving away my 1st product. Sigh. I guess i really need to give this away since if it wasn't for Jane June, i won't be doing this also and i won't be able to challenge myself to do this scarf in 1 week. Haha. I did it, i used 6 days, again, rough estimation !! haha.

Sad and Happy at the same time, DO not have a camera now, but i will make sure i take a picture of it tomorrow and paste it up here as memory. Sigh. My MASTER PIECE !!! sad sad ~ but happy......i finally finished Jane June's present !! Yeah !!

p/s : Jane June is my godsister back in IMU.