Old Man

Sorry for being long winded. I just suddenly feel like writing another post on a different title.

The bell just rang, yes, your eye sight is perfectly NORMAL, i have a bell at home, upstairs and it rang at 1am, approx 5 mins ago. But i am not going to talk about the bell, but the person who rang the bell.

My grandpa reached my home today, about 2.30pm while i was enjoying myself with my PM5 gangs in Sunway Piramid. I knew he was coming, but i also knew that, today will be the last chance for me to come out shopping, have meals with friends and spend such a long long time chatting and teasing each other. It will be the last time for me, until he goes back to my aunt's place in Sungai Petani, Kedah. I am not complaining, no, if you get me for complaining, you are absolutely wrong. I am not complaining AT ALL. I knew we have to share responsible (my family and my aunt's family), and i am so prepared to take up the responsible after putting my grandpa there for 3months and i am thankful that my aunt is so nice to take him till i finish my exams. So, i am NOT COMPLAINING AT ALL.

He looks much better today, he has a new hair cut (for info, i actually seen him er, during early June and the hair cut was quite same, but for blogging purposes, since i never wrote about him having a diff hair cut....i may as well states her.....as if someone bothers...haha). Anyway, he has a diff hair style, almost bald like what Kelvin George Thomas having now...haha(sorry, Kelvin, be proud that i wrote your name here!!). He certainly looks energetic, but ...er....too energetic to say bad words like F***, D***, G***....if u don't get what i am tying to hint there....never mind, just know he is using loads of bad words, worst than anyone who use it that i met before. -sigh- >.<

The 1st thing i found out, when i reach home (i came back earlier k...just for him...sacrifice neh), i found out that he HATES my dog. He don't like my dog running at his heels, he even shooe my dog when my dog comes near to him. Sigh. I don't know, i have a feel that he would complain so much to my dad, to persuade him to give away my dog. NO WAY. The dog stays where i stay, if the dog GOES, then i GO TOO!!! I will have to TEACH him for understanding this fact, yes, i agree, this sounds rude, but his mentality is just like a 5years old boy, he don't understand lots of things yet pretend to understand, he is very bossy, he is very...er...degil. Lolz. *crack knuckles*, if he dare TOUCH my dog, i will GAO DIM him. Haha.

About 3 hours ago, my dog barks loudly. So, i went down and found my dad who reach there slightly earlier than me, talking to my grandpa who was lying on the bed. Apparently, he shouted loudly and my dog thought something goes wrong and bark as loud as he could *good dog right? Buying him something nice tmr..hehe*. So, yea, why did my grandpa shouted at 11pm when everyone is preparing to get into bed? Well, here is what he says to my dad " i woke up suddenly and i saw a bed beside my bed and a DEAD body lying there. I though i am dying soon. Why do you put the small piece of tilam next to my bed ? (my dad says, to cover the small hole there so you don't fall down), Then you should have told me earlier?? Its all YOUR FAULT....I NEARLY DIE OF SHOCK...IF I DIE ALSO YOUR FAULT....blah blah ************* ( all the bad words coming out )

Oh boy, you should see how black my dad's face was. The 1st time in my whole i see him talk so harshly to my grandpa with a BLACK face. Just now (about 2hr ago), my mum came in to chat with me, telling me that my father was nagging about how could my grandpa said those things to him. Sigh. He is really ANGRY and SAD at the same time.

One thing i learn from my grandpa today is, TO NOT LIVE AS OLD AS HIM, UNLESS I AM IN A GOOD MENTALITY, GOOD HEALTH, MOBILE, ABLE TO EAT, LAUGH, CHAT and NOT BAD TEMPER. And, another issue " TO NOT MARRY BAD TEMPER MAN OR HAS HISTORY OF BAD TEMPER ". Haha. ^.^ Smart of me right??

I am serious about the bad temper thingy, i had made up my mind long long time ago, whoever wish to be my special ones (wah...so pah pai??), must NOT BE BAD TEMPER AT ALL. Dare to angry me for no reasons at all for ONCE, and i SWEAR i will throw you into the dustbin and never see you again. haha.

Nite...really tired !!

Blogging....

Haven't been updating my poor blog for some time. To my fellow friends who get to read my private blog or shared blog, it is not that bad...haha, the public one is really PATHETIC. Anyway, will try to update a little bit here.

YAY....FINALLY the exams is OVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Been really slaving myself for this exams, since this might be the last exams that is counted for my PMS?? To tell the truth, if it is not for PMS, i don't think i would have work this hard. Haha..... \(^O^)/ But, come to think about it, i feel that EVERYONE is working very hard for this exams............er....are all of us thinking the same??? Hahaha. Great mind thinks alike !! *high 5*

Anyway, i was pretty depressed the other day, right after the exams. The paper wasn't what i expected. -sigh- (o.o)
I did few practices before the exams and really got a big shock from that. So, i took what ever in the book as important points and i went to re-read up for those few things. And, i was half expecting it will come out the same....sigh, maybe not the same...as in, come out from that area.......but, well.......*you know what happens next*

So, the funny thing about that day is, for the 1st time in my life, i drove and cry at the same time (aww...i was so disappointed mah...sorry lo)....then before i reach home, i wipe my face, look at the mirror to see whether i left any tear tracks or not.....and then went home and pick up my mum to attend some organic conferences. Even when my mum ask my how was the exams, i can even smile at her and say "aiyo, if IMU suddenly stop torturing us, i would died of shock la.". See? I am....so good in covering myself. haha. I really grow up adi loh....Weee....(but felt i am a bit fake at the same time...sigh...never mind) (^.^)

Okay, enough of the stupid exams, i am not going to spend my precious time and energy typing out all about my exams. Let's go back to the time BEFORE my exams and AFTER my exams.

Well, i found out that, during the period BEFORE exams, i was...er, very very bad luck. Haha. I fell down the stairs. Yup, fellow friends.....don't open your mouth TOO big, later flies fly in. Yes, i fell down from the stairs....but not like what the drama shows, ROLL down from top to bottom (i still want my live k). And, the best thing is....the next morning, i still wake up at 8am and study...then at 4pm, i still went for lecture...walking up and down from the super long stairs towards the carpark and up and down the stairs betweem 3rd and 4th floor. Geng leh? haha. By the way, i am not much hurt. Except a BIG bruise on my right knee, dorsal surface of my right feet, and another big bruise on my left shins. (T.T)

Bad luck seems to be with me every day, not long after i fell down, er, about a day before the exams, i cut my right toe's flesh while i was cutting my toe nails. Sigh . =.=" I know, i know, all of you are sweat. .............and the BEST part is.....today, just about 3 hours ago.......i step on a 3 pin plug while i was shifting my stuff from my brother's room (aka my old room) to my Room. Wah...the pain was........unbelievable and i was jumping around with my left leg. Haha. Then when i see blood oozing out from the cut, only i realize i must put something on it before that area got infected. Sigh. The cut was quite deep actually (or else it would bleed right?), and its a shape of a 3 pin plug. haha. Do look at how the 3 pin plug looks like, you would be able to see the shape of my cut. (@.@)

You know what.....i am going to leave my blog like this. Haha. No mood to write anymore. Sien ah...go watch drama....jah neh !!!

Tired

Just woke up feeling tremendously tired and was half wishing i can continue to sleep on. However, due to those "responsibilities" which i am so much behind, i dig myself up from bed and headed here. Haha
Going back to study soon la...don't ngam me k!!!

Been really tired these few days, esp yesterday and today. Yesterday, i didn't get to sleep and was so busy into work. Today, i woke automatically since my mum forgotten to draw the curtains and can you believe that i actually woke up at the 1st ray of sun light? Sigh. Then tahan till whole day.

Grandpa wasn't too good. I had a bad feeling for him. Everyday, i keep telling to anyone at heart(or was it myself) that please hang on till my brother come back. Brother is coming back on early July, so just keep it up !!! Heard that he had been given 2 packs of blood today. There is only 2 reason why you give blood right? Anemia and Heamorrhage and either one isn't good for an old man.Sigh. Heard also that he had TB when he was young and i was fearing and worrying that he might have a recurrent one since he is so old + a weak immunity right now. Sigh. I am worrying so much.

There was once a story, saying that before a person dies, he would be given a short period for him to make up with persons around him. Make those who hate him into forgiving him and make those who love him, continue to love him. Somehow, this idea keeps ponding on my heart. I don't hate him anymore, ever since he took my hands when i went to visit him in China. I gladly forgive him for ignoring me 20years. Everyone was more of sympatizing him than angry with him for the state he was in.....and to tell the truth, basically, no one ever hates him now. So if the aim of the short period is to make everyone not to hate him anymore, he actually reach the aim and should..........oh well, touch wood, i refuse to think about the idea.

I start regretting, why would i spent such a long time hating him when i can move closer to him. All these while, i just say i hate him, he ignore me 1st so why should i love him? In the end, right now, i realize no matter how much i hate him, i still love him deeply. I said before that i will never cry for him in his funeral and at this point, i am on the edge of crying just because he is being admitted into the hospital and not getting better yet.

I start seeing bad omens. Maybe you all would think it nonsense or tell me it is a scientific world now, why would i believe all those things? But frankly speaking, i am very sensitive to all these omens ever since my maternal grandpa died. Now, the same "old" omen is here again, and i am fearing on top of the mountains of fear that anything bad would have happen to him. Please, hang on, at least till brother come back!! Please. He would hate himself if he missed you!!

I don't know i am such a coward. Every times the telephone rings, i felt some thing in my throat which i cannot swallow. I felt myself shivering and started sweating. Then i keep praying hard and talking to "someone" in the air " please not be a bad news". I fear to grab phone calls at home and in uni, i fear to see the caller is my mother..........i am such a coward, right?

I think, no matter how much i hate him.....i love him at the same time. Things just go opposite when you did it too much....the more you hate, it shows the more you care and the more you love....

I am going to study..........i don't want to think anymore~ I am scared!!

Busy & Busy

Been seriously busy these 2 days....er...to be exact, 3 days since i started working hard on Sunday.

Exams in 25days time. I started studying and working hard since 3days ago, on the 1st June (exams on 27th), BRILLIANT right? haha. Even more brilliant is, i come to think that exams is on end of june which = to 30th of JUNE, and it turn out that exams is on 27th.....sigh, i don't have enough days to study !!!

Started Renal yesterday but i start to feel the difficulty today. The anatomy is a killer. There is so much to know, so much to remember and so much to learn. PBL isn't helping either, i don't know whether is every one facing the same problem as me (having so many issues) or just Mala Maung alone is fooling us....er...not fool la, but torturing us. The list.....wow, " FACINATING" !!! The very last person i want to have as PBL faci on this busy system are Htin Aung, Francis Archike, Vera and Mala Maung. It looks like i didn't have the 1st three, yet i wasn't spared from the last. Oh gosh, why can't i just have Ian Chik again???? Or some one else good such as Wahyu Hidayat (i won't complain her anymore!!) or some freshies doctors.....why of all person, Mala Maung?

Really tired and busy. I keep giving myself high dose of Chocolate to make myself happy yet i think it is not working and i am so going to be fat after exams for this high dose!!

Grandpa was admitted into hospital yesterday morning, due to stridor (or wheezing in layman term). It should be quite bad since my aunt sent him into hospital late at 12am and return home at 3am. Xin Ku her la...I didn't know any more info about my grandpa, except that private hospital don't want to take him and my aunt sent him to GH and he got his X ray taken. Can't really blame private hosp actually since who would want to take a patient who is 90years old, so old, not quite mobile, look serious and might die any time? Lucky that the GH is a new one and my grandpa hasn't had any complaints yet (or maybe he has just that i didn't know?)

So yea, got to go back to visit him this Friday (skipping lecture, going back right after PBL....so my fellow classmates, do update me about the lecture i missed okay...) then rush back on Sunday again. =)

Well, shouldn't be so long winded since i really have a lot of things to do. Just finish printing notes, CSU manual, now moving into today's lecture notes and then perhaps add on 5 endocrine notes. I am pushing myself to the max. Seriously, fat is in the fire. I need to complete 60notes in 10days then start 2nd round. (60notes does not includes the notes we have extra everyday!!). Die die die. Like what a common phrase states "have time to die but have no time to be sick". I really pity chen yi who is currently sick.....please, do not spread to me!!! haha.

Till next time then!!