Good Bye 2007

Too many tears, anger, sadness and of course happiness filled my whole year. I never regretted going anything yet, whatever i did, i did it with a good reason, thinking of the complications and responsibilities which i would faced after takinf certain action. Well, im not complaining that i have too much tears nor anger, what is life without all those "spices" ....haha
Waiting for the Sem5s to come out from their EOS. Okay, im not trying to haunt them ( yes...i am not), im just here to get my letter for my electives application. Came last friday but Ms. Haslinda was on leave and i was told my Ms. SD( not saw doreen, but Susheila Devi) that Ms Haslinda will only be back on Monday. So, here i am !! However, the letter which i am waiting will only be produced in 2 working days time ( sounds like government department right? 3 hari berkerja or the bank...haha). Anyway, so now, im just slacking around in E lab 1, at 1st, the whole E lab was mine, until a malay girl join me, then another malay girl and adding in our dear Vivian and Ing How. Lol. Quite surprised to see them here actually.
Was very bored at home these few days, so started playing my piano.....which leads me to this brilliant idea of printing music scores using IMU quota. Haha. Come on, if i don't finish the quota, i would have left like RM5 to IMU to be cancelled off, and that will be the last thing i would want to do. Muahaha....so printed about 9pages here and going to print more on Wednesday when i have more paper.
2007, i shall miss it so much when i look back next year. A year, which really contains a little bit too much tears and angers year. But, i am glad to have such a good year!!
Welcome 2008....i shall face any challenges that lies ahead of me !! Good Luck, everyone !!

Gathering....

I am extremely tired today…really, reaching my maximum soon.

Got up from my bed before 10 which i usually slept till 1pm…haha…maybe due to the habit which i woke up before 9 since the past week while i was in Kedah. But, i woke up frequently during that short sleep due to nose obstruction and i cannot breath properly.

Got news from Christy about this gathering Tuesday while i was having a boring dinner with my father’s best friends(I was so bored so i decided to sms both Ernest and Christy). Then, next day, Alex informed me about going to Klang for Bak Kut Teh and later a dinner at Shammy’s place. Well, no thanx to Bak Kut Teh, i had it almost every day in Kedah and ok, thats not the main reason, the main reason is, i already promised Jane June to go teman her study in Library after i got back from Kedah( at 1st promise her to come back on 26th, but now, 27th…a bit sad adi and i am left with one day to teman her study till her EOS on monday), further more, i need to go IMU to find AAD for my Support letter for Electives. So, too bad to alex and the gang, i can only attend the dinner.

This morning, after waking up feeling extremely tired, i still have to help my mum clean the house( apparently my aunt don’t do house work although she is in the house while my family went back Kedah for a week), hang the clothes, cut vegetables for my dear Asam Laksa and other stuff. I was puffing and sweating like a mad person walking in the Pasar after doing everything and i regrette wearing my skirt while doing house work. Anyway, later i was so exhausted but i went to IMU.

Went to find Ms Haslinda from AAD, but no one pick up the phone. Fine, i went to find another electives person in charge, Ms Susheila Devi and she told me that she cannot do anything to help me, i have to wait for Ms Haslinda who is on leave till monday to get the support letter. Sigh, Bad luck for me so i went back to the library and start mugging my 1st CVS notes.

Went home around 2.30pm after Jane June decided to go back to Vista to take a nap. I really want to stay and keep Jackie and Ben company, but im just too tired to stay for them, so i went home. Then i started to check my mail and stuff, not realising that time really flies…it was soon 5pm and i start preparing myself for the gathering. Till that moment, i really feel like giving Alex a call telling him i really cannot make it. But still, its not good to FFK after promising people. So, dragging a perfectly exhausted body, i went out at around 6.05pm expecting to be late for the dinner at 7pm.

Surprisingly, although i drive at 80km/hr ( its the rule not i purposely do so) and with quite frequent jams here and there, i still manage to reach Shammy’s Klang Seafood Restaurant at 7.30. Haha. Real weird, but finding the rest of the gang still at Jusco Bukit Tinggi. So, waited for them…..and nearly fallen asleep in my car ( the aircon is too comfortable !! ).

Anyhow, the gathering was superb. At 1st, felt a bit weird and uneasy that i sort of miss out few things( my fault coz i missed few gatherings, can’t blame them). But belive me, with a funny Matthew and Shaun, it is never a gathering without laughter. The gathering was so fun…haha, we laughed most when Shaun shared his deepest Secret…lol. Okay, im not saying anything here, i promised that everything said there was to be kept there. But, if any chance Shaun is reading this, i wanted to tell him :” Shaun, Go Ahead la…you never know if you never try…no pay no gain !! Like Ming Zhan said, Guys can be thick skin, you all got the ‘licence’ “

Yea, so we took few photos, ate a really sumptious feast ( lala bihun, tang hun, oh jian(oyster egg), Butter Prawn, Steam Ginger Prawn, Vegetables(fan shu ye i think),seafood Tofu(this is good!!), Sweet sour crab, Kam Heong crab, soft shell crab,steam Mantou, top with fried ice cream and fresh fruits for desserts !! geng le…..saliver is dropping? lol)…….and the best part is….it only cost Rm22 per person, do you belive it? Its about RM242 in total for everything we ate. But the best part i must admit, its not the food, not the enviroment, but the people who attend…lol….Love them so much !!I regretted for not attending previous gathering…i really can’t help it…i always have outings with other people on that day…sigh.

Anyway, i would love to post a photo here…but no photo was past to me yet….so, till then,

See you guys again !!

0501PM05….again, i must say….YOU GUYS ROCKS !!! Even better than whole IMU add up together…haha

Finally Back!!

Well, i really in need of catching my breath, just reach home few hours back, now, my mind is still way back in my hometown, Kedah. This trip, again, i had concluded something....lol....im concluding a lot of things every time i go so places....well, here goes.

1. Grandmother.
Actually, didn't plan to put this into my blog when i was drafting my blog few days ago (yes, i DRAFT my post), but today, something happened that changed my mind. Anyway, before i say anything, give yourself sometime and think about your grandmother, how is your relationship with her? fine? Very good? or so so? Well, if i tell you mine, you might be surprised or in shocked.

Few people said that i am actually emotional stable person. It's very very extremely rare that i would hate and sad....the most is anger which is quite rare also. but....shame to say that.....

I HATE my grandmother. Haha. Are you shocked? Yeap, i hate her, or rather never like her since i was young. Why? What makes a little child of 4-5 start to hate her till today? Hmm....i do not know actually, maybe due to her nagging and always complaining, kedekut character, keep scolding, unfair, unjust...etc etc. All in all, i HATE her. I hate her even more when my grand father passed away. The hatred peak there when i know what she said to my dearest grandfather when he is at his dead bed.I never quite forgiven her till now, where i guess, it is almost time for me to start to take things a little bit more smoothly. Back to the hatred story, well, She told my grandfather a cruel, not forgivable sentence when my grandfather was told that he might be paralysed after his bypass operation few years back. She said " its either you die or you get well, i do not want to take care of some " ma fan" people who cannot walk nor eat by his ownself, its very tideos and i have no time nor money nor energy to do such thing. So, its better that you die. "My grandfather cried bitterly after she said that.... not long after that, he died...sadly.

THAT, was what she said to my grandfather. I wasn't there when she said that maybe she knew that i hate her so much that i would hate her even more if i knew she said that to my grandfather whom i love more than myself. But, she forgotten that my aunts are very kepo persons, they gossips a lot and i accidentally heard their gossips.I remember i didn't talk to her, not even once during the funeral, ignore her and try to escape from being alone with her. Stare at her hatefully and everyday i just sit by my grandfather's body and look at her with hatred. A funny thing is, although husband and wife for so over 50years, my grandmother dare not go near my grandfather's dead body and she shiver when i look at her from there.
-sigh-

But, yea, that, was few years back. Today, we had lunch together before my family depart home to KL. During the lunch, she told my mum that she do not want to take anymore medication from UMMC (UM hosp's real name) anymore. I know the reason behind this. She knew both my mother and I hate her and she do not want to trouble us anymore. But, don't know why, i suddenly feel weird. I start to think whether i would cry for her when she dies. Haha. Weird right? But, i shake that off my head and respect her decision provided that the medications that was prescribed in UMMC's list must be taken faithfully from any hospital in Kedah and she agreed. On the way back to her house ( to drop her off so we can depart), i saw her face while she was talking to my dad ( didn't notice me looking at her). I suddenly realised that she had grown old since my grandfather's funeral. Much much older than before. There is so many wrinkles on her face. Her eyes are getting smaller and smaller and blurer. She cannot see clearly, her legs are weaker, she cannot walk fast nor long, her body aches here and there, her hair are dry and crisp....................is my grandfather's funeral THAT long ago? How come i never realised she changed a lot? Okay, i never really look at her PROPERLY.....but thats not the point. The point is, in few years time, maybe while i am in PMS, she would have died and till that point, i understand that YES, i will cry bitterly for her. I used almost 20years to HATE her, but still, i never know that i love her when i hate her.

-sigh-

weird right? to love and to hate a person at the same time. But one thing i am sure is, i have forgiven her. Yeap, I do. I hate her for my grandfather. But if He knows that i hate her for so long, he would never have forgiven me. He taught me to forgive, to love, to sacrifice, to smile and to bring everyone laughter and joy but never hatred. Yea, i guess, its high time that i forgive her.

Anyway, i guess i would stop writing...better go to bed, im a bit exhausted....

Christmas......

How time flies....i barely remembered what i done last christmas and now, it is christmas again.

My dad told me " christmas again lo....didn't you said before that the faster this year end the better it is? "

I was totally speechless when he said that. At 1st, i do think it is a very sloe year, but come to think about it, i didn't really did much thing this year....i felt like i wasted 90% of them.....on what? i do not know, am still searching for an answer.

I guess, one whole year, i was busy with EOS, yup 1 year ago, planning to work for the upcoming EOS2. Right now, just ended the stupid freaking GI and Heamato Summative and is going to work AGAIN for the upcoming EOS3. Sigh, life seems so " lifeless " when i think of what lays in front of me. Seriously, this year, besides studying hard, camping in library, mugging up all my lecture notes and working on PBL, i really can't think of anything that i had done. I only went K singing once, went to watch...urm...1 movie? and that movie was I AM LEGEND which i just watched yesterday. I AM SERIOUS, i haven watch movie for about one year already. Pathetic right? But never mind, i am going to watch another one on monday...muahaha...i want to watch ENCHANTED.......and if possible, my polar bear...lol

Bought few christmas presents in Midvalley yesterday. One for Chris and one for Dear Jane June...lol. Maybe i would buy another one for my mum and my dear tut tut. Wanted to buy one for my dad...but really don't know what to buy for him and i do not have enough money ...sigh, i didn't even got myself a present for christmas.

Christmas, was one of the festive season i love since young. I don't really love CNY, nor other festive seasons, to me, they are just OKAY, even if i didn't celebrate them, it would be fine to me. However, to me, it would be cruel not to celebrate Christmas. Lol. I am starting to worry for EOS5, not going to have a proper christmas celebration...how sad. Anyway, reason for me liking is still unknown...lol....maybe due to my ballet concert i had while i was a little girl. I remembered well that each year, there would be 2 periods where all of us, from teachers, principle and students would be busy. One is September where we usually hold out annual concert and the other....yup...you guess it correctly, it is christmas. I wouldn't say we ARE busy on that day......but we WERE busy even before those 2 month. Why? Can't you figure it out? oh...come on...its LOGIC....lol....the reason is....we need to train for the dance.......hahaha....got zha dao? lol....ei, you thought we can straight away dance on the stage without proper trainning few months before hand?

Anyway, i am going to spend my dear christmas away in Kedah this year. Might not have internet connection there.....it is ...urm...slightly not so updated....not much people would have internet connection there not to say streamyx wireless or hotspot. Lolz. So,

Merry Christmas To All......

Have a perfect Christmas...and don't ask me out anymore...coz im broke...lol.....PK...unless you want to treat me !!
=)