Today

Today, i have no idea its a good day or not.This morning, i was awaken by the " roaring " sound of my aunt.Lolz ~ She was shouting so loud that it gives me an impression of a lion roaring in the jungle.Well, her mood wasn't so good today, and that was the 1st time i ever saw her being so angry in my life. She was shouting on don't know what....i have no idea....i guess something to do with her mother in law. But well, she woke me up....and only then i realised im the only one in the house who is still sleeping...and basically everyone was waiting for me to get myself prepared...while im sleeping in my room.

Anyway,so i sort of jump out from my bed and rush to clean myself...everything done...then we depart for our breakfast.As usual, no one suggested where to eat....so i gave my suggestion and then we went there for a perfect breakfast.I thought everything is going to go on well....but im wrong. After the breakfast, we went to a boutique....and there, my mum, cousin and aunty was enjoying themselves.I wanted to enjoy myself too....but well, my mum told me not to buy any clothes...unless i keep them till Chinese New Year.....so...i just sit at the sofa with my dad. I don't want to make myself feel regret of not able to buy the clothes i like.So, the best thing is to sit and not take a look at the cloths...then i won't have the " passion " of wanting to buy some clothes...then i won't feel sad of not being able to buy them.Well, whole thing went wrong again.It all started with me, sitting down on the sofa. There, my dad asked about my ankle condition...and that was when i realised i have a bad ankle the previous night. So, i pull up my trousers and let him have a look at my ankle.Well, that was what i shouldn't do......coz, my ankle had swollen again during the night and i don't even know !! AND.....my dad saw the ankle and was so angry of me ( coz i didn't tell him....anyway....i don't feel the pain and i totally forgoteen about it...how m i to tell u ?? ). So, he went straight to my mum and sort of talking sternly to her that we need to go to the clinic at instance before the clinic close at 2 pm.So, you see, my mum, cousin and aunt...have to simply just leave the boutique due to ME.....my stupid ankle. AND, can you imagine their face ?? Dissappointed and sort of angry la !!! Sigh ~ My fault again...... !! Actually, i insisted that my ankle is okay....infact the ankle is not as swollen as the previous night, but my dad just refuse to belive me......sigh ~ Never mind.I will bear all the fault then.

So, we reached the clinic and be the last patient of the day.Lolz ~ I went into the clinic and 1stly...asked him to give me, my 3rd dose of Hep B injection.....and then only we talked about my ankle.When the doc saw my ankle...he said...its very mild swollen...no worries...few days should be alright again....but just don't walk too much and don't do vigorous exercise like jumping and running. See....i told them its okay.....they just don't trust my " profesionalist opinion "....Never mind !! So, we paid the doc ( the doc didn't even gave me anything....no medication...no oitment...nothing...i just pay for the Hep B injection )....and then got home.

At home, i tried to be nice....and help my aunt carry her belongings to the door.....while she was cleaning up her back seats in the car. But, my dad saw me walking and he told me sternly to sit down and he went to get some ointment for me. Great...so i sat down and at this perfect moment...my aunt and uncle came into the house and saw me sitting down like a queen refuse to help..........i just feel so bad ( although they didn't say anythign )and i really wanted to get up and help them a little bit before my dad came back.But well, things just don't go MY WAY.....and my dad came back at this perfect moment and i have to sit down and do nothing. Sigh ~ So, my aunt and uncle went back to JB leaving me here feeling so depress of something i have not done.
Next, everything was fine all the afternoon except the sudden explosion of my dad's temper....i don't know what......but no one got " injured " coz i was using the comp, my cousin sleeping up stairs and my mum cooking in the kitchen.BUt well, things went real wrong just now....i guess. Coz i saw my mum went into my bro's room when im walking towards the bathroom to bath.I thought there was nothing....but just as im stepping into the bathroom, my mum called me....and i went to her.There, i saw her rubbing her eyes....if im not mistaken....i saw her rubbing away some tears.Gosh, this was the 1st time i saw her crying after my bro's love case. So, i went to her..and decided not to say anything.She told me about buying a new pen for my dad.......and then i understood everything. My dad had been letting his bad temper on my poor mother again.Sigh ~ My dad is a perfect dad when he is " normal " ...as in good temper.But, when he is in a bad mood.....everyone will sure kena kau kau !! Esp my mum, usually all of us would try to run away from being blast by my dad's temper...but my mum can't run....she will usually be the one kena from my dad.Sigh ~ poor thing. My dad some times are seriously too much. 大男人主意is what i would say. He just refuse to listen to other ppl's opinion.Like this morning...i told him that i don't need to go for any Hep B vaccination for my whole life......but he insisted that i still need to go for it after 5 year....GOSH....pls la...2 doc told me the same thing and i learned from A Lvls bio.....and you don't want to belive me and the doc...but want to trust ur 30 yrs old bio knowledge.....ur bio at ur time might not be right now...but you just refuse to change ur opinion and fact.Never mind...i just don't bother about him...he don't want to belive ?? Fine...next time you go talk to the doc....and you will be the one being embarassed...not me...i told u the fact and u refuse to belive is ur problem. So, my dad usually have this 大男人主意 .....and he will never say sorry. He will do anything to make up every bad thing he had made....but he will never say sorry.Sometimes, i just think that my dad don't understand what a women wants. Women don't care what you gave them after you throw ur tantrum on her....she just want a word " sorry "...but you can't even say the magic word......how do you want other ppl to forgive you ?? Thats why, i always told me mum that she is real good...she can forgive my dad even though he throw her a real bad temper and later never even say a word " sorry ". Sigh ~ See teng, u said im a good ppl, always forgive ppl....u know now where i got my genes ?? and im not as good as her !!

Today, i study nothing again. I suddenly remember the verse 明日复明日，明日何其多；我生待明日，万事成蹉跎.Meaning, tmr tmr and tmr, there are so many tmr; i spend my whole life waiting on tmr....and nothing was done in the end. Yea, thats what im doing now...waiting for tmr....i really want to study...but yet....things just decided to pops out when i want to study.So, in the end...i didn't study.Sigh ~ Canot CAnnot !! Tmr Must STUDY !! I cannot be so lazy !! Cannot Cannot !! Da mek da mek da mek !!

One more thing, my best friend, yun, had a little problem with her room mate and she was real depressed this afternoon when im doing my PBL( yea...im working on my PBL....then later on my AIR and my patch work which i want to pass it to my patner tmr ) . She was crying so hard and can't find anyone of the gals ( we are 4 gals group...hahaha.....Me, Yun,Teng And Kei ) ...and she wanted a listener yet can't find one.Finally, she decided to nudge me and see whether im here or not ( coz im always on away ).Lucky for her, im here...and she start to split everything....and i just can't help pity her.Go so far to India, now having problem with her room mate. Anyway, i comforted her and then she left. My emotion was not right after that.I started to remember the time we gals had in Japan. We too, quarreled coz of small matters and we pulled tru it.....how come this happened again....yet she can't pull tru it ?? Hmm. Weird...but well, maybe its becoz of diff ppl ?? For best friends, we usually have a lot more of toleration than other ppl. To tell the truth, im actually have a moment feeling glad that she quarrelled with her room mate. Im Evil rite ?? i just realised that too. I guess im just possesive.I always feel very unsecure ever since she went to a diff college than me and teng...then she know her current room mate there too...and they got very close.At one time, i thought i would lost her as a friend, yet she remains one of our gang......maybe i think too much, thats the problem...but i never have a secure feeling....since that.I guess, what with losing my grandpa, im real scare of losing more ppl i love, thats why im becoming more and more possesive. Hopefully, im not so possesive to my future bf...or else...i can tell that i will sure fail in that relationship !! Lolz ~

right, enough or typing....im so tired...maybe i should just go and sleep now !! Nitez ~ Sweet Dream to everyone

Again, Have a sweet day tmr....dun have a day like my day, today.....See u all next time !!

Signing Off

-ichigo -